Following my Gut

I have two admissions here...

1. My gut instincts have always whispered, yelled at or compelled me to take this path, do that thing or walk  away. 
2. And I have not always been a great listener. Those times when I didn't listen to that voice, that nudge, I wished I had.

It's part of growing up and growing old(er), I guess, learning to listen to that voice, that feeling. I don't always hear a message. Sometimes it's a feeling of alarm or some other physical reaction, and I have to just go with it; trusting myself. Now, as we have started this homeschool adventure and actually doing it each day in some form or fashion, that feeling is trying to tell me something. See, I bought our PreK curriculum from Calvert School back in February of this year. I had been looking around for something, I didn't know any homeschoolers yet and I was feeling kind of alone, on my own, so I found a curriculum that had a built-in support for parents. I ordered it and I was very happy with my decision. It provides a traditional curriculum (i.e.what we would find in the public schools) and I am....bored with it. That may be the reason we didn't do any lessons last week. We were busy too but I wasn't motivated. I also must admit (this is #3!) that I am beginning to skip around in the lessons. I teach what I think is important or if I think it will capture James' attention or if I think he needs it. I am already rebelling and finding my own way. While Calvert and I are together now, we will be breaking up in the near future. Oh we are having a good time but it can't last forever. So, today I started to organize my favorite resources and creating notebooks for my Charlotte Mason material, general homeschool information and "stuff" I want to use with James. I have found a mentor and teacher for myself in a woman who lived 100 years ago in England. Go figure.